Sometimes I wonder what the people around me -- the people at work, at church, extended family -- think when they see me finally losing my "baby weight." That I'm finally getting my act together? That I'm not being lazy and indulgent anymore? Do they realize that I HAVE been trying this whole time, I just didn't realize until I got a medical diagnosis what it was I was doing wrong? Do they care? It it more fun to sit back and judge than to try to understand?
But the thing is, it doesn't matter. I'm still the same me, regardless. I never really feel all that fat on a moment to moment basis when I'm absurdly overweight (in fact, pictures showing the fact kind of shock me.) And I never reall feel all that thin when I'm skinny. I'm just me. No more, no less (even though I'm sometimes more, and sometimes less.)
And you know, I used to get really frustrated that ALL my extra weight goes straight to my belly -- at any given time, I look 3 or 4 months pregnant. No amount of sit-ups can help this (although when I was very anorexic at age 14, at once point the "pooch" went away . . . but when I realized that I had to . . . you know . . . eat every day . . . BOOM! It came back.)
But the more I people watch at church or the mall or Walmart . . . damn, I'm just glad all the weight doesn't go to my ass.
May 4th, 2002 Our wedding
September 14th, 2002. Going home from the hospital with 2 day old baby Jake!
10 days old and we're ALL worn out!
1st Halloween (6 weeks)
1st Christmas (3.5 months)
January 2003 ~ 4 months old
July 2003 ~ 10 months old
December 2003 ~ 15 months old
June 2004 ~ 21 months old 
Lou's 28th birthday. 10-23-2004. 
Easter 2005 ~ 30 months old 
You are doing AWESOME girl!!!!
I got ya beat girl, I look 7 months pregnant for some reason lol, just kidding!
But seriously dude, when I am not pregnant, my weight is in my stomach as well and man I LOL ed at your last statement, I will take weight in my stomach any day over all of it somewhere else! :)
Posted by: Kelly | August 20, 2006 at 09:23 PM
I hear ya, girl!
How much have you lost thus far, if I may ask?
Posted by: Sandi P. | August 21, 2006 at 08:32 AM
Dude, my weight is all in my butt. No fair poking fun at the big butt girl.
Posted by: Monica | August 21, 2006 at 12:01 PM
I thought you were getting all serious and then you end with this:
"But the more I people watch at church or the mall or Walmart . . . damn, I'm just glad all the weight doesn't go to my ass."
I love you, Jen! Keep up the great work, sweetie.
Posted by: Ninotchka | August 21, 2006 at 04:48 PM