Help me.
I've become THAT PERSON.
You know.
The one who only drinks water with their meals.
The one who orders a salad every freaking place you go.
And says no to the french fries and baked potatoes.
The one who over-analyzes every eating decision she makes.
The one who looks for the "low carb" foods on the menu.
Who, in a pinch, will order a grilled chicken sandwich and not eat the bread.
The one who declines food, saying "Oh, I CAN'T have that," or "No, that's not on my diet."
The one who almost cries when the cashier at Panera tells her they're out of the whole grain baguette, and would she like a piece of french baguette?
The one who, when you bring it up, will explain sugar, insulin, and glucose and how it affects your body. And she doesn't stop talking even when your eyes glaze over and you look away nervously.
The one who reads enough diet and nutrition books to get an advanced degree.
The one who has a food journal and writes everything she eats into it, in hopes of tracking her energy and moods and progress.
The one who tells her husband, "You know, I'm a little concerned we're feeding {child} too many carbs."
The one who, in the grocery store, stands there flipping over box after box of different brands of food, searching for the nutrition information and putting them back with a sigh or a slam because they don't fit with "the plan," all the while muttering to herself "not enough protein" or "too many sugars."
I hate that person.
But that is me now. And it makes me sad. And mad. I never in all my life thought I would turn into that person.
. . .
And in related news, I've lost 5 pounds. And I haven't had sugar for 15 days now.
May 4th, 2002 Our wedding
September 14th, 2002. Going home from the hospital with 2 day old baby Jake!
10 days old and we're ALL worn out!
1st Halloween (6 weeks)
1st Christmas (3.5 months)
January 2003 ~ 4 months old
July 2003 ~ 10 months old
December 2003 ~ 15 months old
June 2004 ~ 21 months old 
Lou's 28th birthday. 10-23-2004. 
Easter 2005 ~ 30 months old 
Glad to hear you are making progress!
Posted by: William | May 26, 2006 at 05:42 PM
You are doing so well! Although I think I would lose my head with no sugar! But you are doing a good thing for your body and mind, and you should be proud of yourself! I know I am!
Kristin
Posted by: Kristin | May 26, 2006 at 08:05 PM
It will get easier with time Jen. The bright side is that the weight will fall off.
Posted by: Sheri | May 27, 2006 at 11:41 AM
It is hard, the eating lifestyle changes. Im still not there but I applaud you for your efforts and your progress. Im proud of you for taking care of you even if you turned into a person you "hate"...you will grow to love her soon enough. hugs!
Posted by: Tricia S | May 27, 2006 at 03:48 PM
You are doing a FANTASTIC job Jen - well done!!!! Big hugs to you, I know it must be hard. I would never have lasted as long as you have! Keep it up, I'm proud of you!
Posted by: Sue | May 27, 2006 at 07:53 PM
Sorry you've turned into "that" person... but we love you anyway. :)
Congrats on the weight loss!
Posted by: Kate | May 30, 2006 at 02:28 AM
I love this person before and after the changes! :):)
Posted by: Kelly | May 31, 2006 at 06:23 PM